I know it's been a while since I've posted, I've been busy,

Last night, my dad didn't get home 'till like 11:30, and yeah, I get that that's not really late, but he's a drunk, and when he's out, he's out with his buddy's getting drunk, and it bothers me, he's got two kids at home, one 14 one 11. anything could happen, someone could come in the house, he could have a wreck, a number of things could happen.
last night, I was sitting there just crying, waiting on him to come home so I could go to sleep and not be in charge of the house anymore, and I picked up my guitar, Suizy Q, and I started trying to write a song, I can write some poetry and some pretty good stories, but I can't quite write lyrics, so while I was sittin' there playing, trying to find some words, I kinda went off on a rabbit trail and just started playin and strumming random chords, and it didn't sound that bad.... I ended up breaking down and shaking and crying but it didn't hurt so much that he was out drinking when I was all done, the only thing that really hurt was my fingers cause I played for like 30-40 minutes straight no breaks or anything...
music, and guitar are my medicine,...
yeahh, you don't have to reply, I just hadda get it out somewhere...

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"He who hates me hates my Father as well."
John 15:23

Talman Ibanez Inner City-Suizy Q
2002 American-Made Fender Telecaster-Vengence
Fender Hot Rod Deluxe III

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Cheers
Steve

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In my opinion Leo Fender had essentially perfected the guitar amplifier by 1964.

I like to get lost with my guitar too. Hang in there.

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...I for one, sure would appreciate the return of intelligent conversation, spirit of assistance and the simple yet effective ignoring of those who can't seem to hang with that...
Best regards,
rob

This is kind of the reason all true players play. It's not because they want to, it's because they need to. They enjoy the escape that playing offers them. It's sort of like reading a book, only the sound is the story and you leave off on a different note, rather than a page, each time you finish playing. There were some days where I'd gone hours on end, not stopping until I can't take sitting, or the feeling of having to use the bathroom got unbearable. It's almost a good feeling to forget the outside world and have nothing but whatever you can create. Hope your situation improves. Just keep your head up and your hands moving.

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1984 Squier Contemporary Stratocaster
1986 Peavey Envoy 110
1967 Kingston Acoustic

thanks, but I don't think he'd ever go to rehab, I don't think he sees his problem,
I hadda stop last night, I haven't played like I should here recently, so my fingers have gone soft, I can hardly touch a string today, I've tries, I just have tah pour myself into that hunk of wood or I don't think I could take this life half the time,

Thanks all.

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"He who hates me hates my Father as well."
John 15:23

Talman Ibanez Inner City-Suizy Q
2002 American-Made Fender Telecaster-Vengence
Fender Hot Rod Deluxe III

Check out Alateen for you and your sibling, no need feeling this alone when you're not.
Your music will help, but don't stop there.

Good luck (keep us posted)
John.E

my pops was the same way. my nights consisted of waiting for him to make it home, if he came home. my mom would wait and call him every name in the book. she also drank a bit. when he came home there would be the usual knock down, drag out. me and sis would listen to all of this. it was lots of yelling and language a kid shouldn't hear. they seperated when i was 9. after that, every move i made was wrong in my moms eyes. she hated me because i was, and still am alot like my pops. she worked 2 jobs as a single mother and i respect her more than anyone i now. however, she resented me for being my fathers son.
trwells i learned alot from basically "raising" myself. mom worked all the time and sis was in the dating stage. i had no choice but to cook for myself and do laundry and other house work to help my mom. i don't know who appreciated it more. mom or me. we all have a pretty good relationship today but i think about it daily. so many folks have been thru so much worse and thrived. you will do the same.

thanks for the story, I don't have to listen to my parents fight because they're separated, my mother just got out of prison two months ago from bein there 7 years, I know what it's like being alone, I know it'd probobly be safer to live with her, but he needs someone to look after him, he's a single dad who owns his own business, so he works alot, and I get that,. I've practically raised my self, and helped raise my sister, but his drinking isn't helping any... he only started drinking heavy after my grampa died in 09

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"He who hates me hates my Father as well."
John 15:23

Talman Ibanez Inner City-Suizy Q
2002 American-Made Fender Telecaster-Vengence
Fender Hot Rod Deluxe III

Sometimes when you're least expecting it a thread ups and breaks your heart clean in half.

Tessa, I don't know if it helps you any at all, but people thousands of miles away who you'll likely never meet are holding you in their thoughts and hearts tonight. We wish you well and are sending you a big hug.

Best - C

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Well thanks, man...
I didn't mean to break hearts, I just hadda talk about it to someone, and I figured I could get it out here,..

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"He who hates me hates my Father as well."
John 15:23

Talman Ibanez Inner City-Suizy Q
2002 American-Made Fender Telecaster-Vengence
Fender Hot Rod Deluxe III

You figured right. It just worries us thinking about you being alone and in charge of the house and your sibling. As you get older you'll be able to cope with it better. Just stay patient and stay tough. G

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you can save the world with your guitar one love song at a time it's just better, more fun, easier with a fender solid body electric guitar or electric bass guitar.

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