You know, you've got to think of all the positives in your life. If you think you're the only one who's been depressed, you sir, are wrong. Myself, I've had times when all I wanted to do was be alone and just listen to hard rock/screamo. This happened after my rabbit died...on Christmas day of last year.

Now, do you think I felt sorry for myself? Yeah, of course I did. I wasn't able to get over that for...quite a while probably about 3 months. The worst part was that my rabbits death could have been prevented. Because of that, my new favorite song of all time is Fade to Black by Metallica. I relate to that song because that's what I wanted to do, and sometimes still do. It may take a while, but I will get over it.

There ain't nothin wrong with listening to songs you can relate to. They may help you get along with your life. HOWEVER, the one thing you need to change is your food choice. It is NOT healthy to junk out all day long. You've got friends everywhere here, some with (argueably) sadder stories than yours. Yet they still go on with life. That's what you've got to do. Everyone here is willing to help you.

All ya gotta do is keep your head up. Ya never know when your life will change for the better. It happens to every great person in the world.

Still not feeling any better, despite your kind words of encouregment.
I know I'll get through this time, it's just that it sucks big time thats all.
Yes I am going to rehab, but only like once or twice a year. I'm depressed at the moment, have been for about 2 weeks. Listening to grunge music gets all the anger and sadness out of me, thats why i think its good for me. Plus, I've liked grunge music since like the age of 8, before this even happened.

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Hey Riley,

I hate to hear that you are down on yourself Little Bro. You were dealt a sheist sandwich, now you gotta take what you were dealt and play it the best way you can.

I remember a long time ago being 13. It wasn't much fun. Throw your dystonia on top of that and you've got a lot going on. The good thing is, you can deal with it and get through it. No - it won't be easy, it's not fun, and a lot of times it sucks, but if you hang tough and believe in yourself, you'll come out of it OK.

I don't want to sound like your Dad or a big brother, so I'll talk to you just like one of my buddies, which you are. First thing Dude, is you need to keep your body working at 100%. You've got some healing to do to get your right side back in shape. So just like any engine, you gotta give yourself good fuel. Get rid of the crap. Junk food and energy drinks aren't what you need. And no, I'm not saying never touch 'em, 'cuz that's not real, but you've gotta eat good food to get your body running right. And I know, fruits and veggies and water aren't near as good as a candy bar, some chips and an energy drink, but give 'em a few weeks and you'll be surprised how better they start to taste and how much better you feel.

Don't worry about the dudes at school. Let 'em FO and die. You don't need to deal with that stuff. I remember being bullied around. I got past it, you will too.

Hang with your friends. These are the guys you need in your corner. They are the guys that believe in you and want you to do good. Don't be afraid to tell 'em you need a little support now and then, but tell them to slap you upside the head when you get feeling sorry for yourself or when you think life sucks. Tell them it's part of their duty as friends to help keep you where you need to be going.

Don't feel guilty when somebody helps you out. It doesn't mean they are feeling sorry for you - it means they care for you. There's a big difference. Just figure that when the day comes, it will be time for you to help them in some way and be ready to do for them what you can.

Keep after your physical therapy. It's kinda like eating the good food. It sucks at first because it's tough, and not doing it is the easy way out. And if you can’t do something the therapist wants you to do, or you fall on your tail trying to do it, you get embarrassed - don't worry about it. Get up, dust yourself off and get after it.

And the last thing - don't ever feel like you are alone. Remember you've got friends here on the Fender board from all around the world that care about you. I've got my own little group of buddies here - airbornestrat, Blertles, Celtic Cyclonus, BlackCatBone, CAFeathers and others. Except for Chet, we'd walk right past each other on the street because we've never met in person, but they are just as much my buddies as anybody. We're all different, we've got our own sheist sandwiches to deal with and we all carry our baggage and our fears, just like you do. But you know - we're buddies and we hang here together and we care for each other, and that's what gets us by some days.

Listen to what people here tell you. There are a lot of smart men and women here from all over the world with a lot of experience. Listen to what they say. I learn a lot from them. You can too!

Hey - Just like what you are doing, don't be afraid to blow off a little steam here too. Sometimes a guy just needs to get it off his chest!

Anyway Little Bro - hang tough! You'll get there!

RickyD

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Perfectly said Ricky my bro!

CC

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Riley a lot of the things you sat are tell tales signs of depression. Things like wanting to sleep a lot and the thoughts that are running through your mind. There is nothing wrong with speaking to a neutral party maybe a therapist but you cant hold it all in . Just look at the odds you have overcome already that you are able to play a guitar . That is no easy feat even for someone who did not have a stroke.

Hey your mother and Father love you so they might be a bit over protective dont feel guilt or anger over that as there are kids who have parents who dont give a $@!&. And anyone who can make a stupid remark over what happened to you is a total jerk off. Hey you got friends that care about you and a family that does too. The best thing is dont bottle everything up go to your Father or Mother and let them know when something is bothering you they will be there 100% to help. Cut the junk food out as it is not helping your state of mind and is also ruining your body. I also love Heart Shaped Box for its dark overtones but dont let these feelings engulf you.

You have your ax and it is an escape and a talent so put it to use. But remember when you are down go and talk to your parents and dont give no bullsh!t that you dont want to give it a try I think you will be shocked.

But I absoulutley hate it when my parents worry about me. I talk to my friends alot about whats going on though. I just had a salad sandwich, that tasted good, but I'm like a junk food junkie.

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+1 to ricky.

riley, my best wishes on your way. the salat sandwich was good start. keep going. ask your parent for help to get a normal eater and talk about your thoughts. cook with your parents, be there on lunch and dinner time. it will takes some time but you will see that your inner dog will be smaller.
it's a question of the will and thinking. WHAT CAN I DO? it's by your to change the situation.

good luck and cheers

Lil Bro. Nobody can tell you not to resent your bad turn. It's only natural. I believe though as time goes by, you'll get tired of the status quo, and get amped up (naturally ) and take off with what you've got and focus on what you can do. We all love music for it's ability to lift us up and out. That would be a good place to keep your head.

This thing limits your choices. I've lived a physical life, war, construction worker, etc. and it definitely was not nirvana. There are many different paths a person's life can take. Satisfaction can be found in many places.

I heard a song once that said something like: "Lord, give me the love to serve others, and Lord give me the love to let them serve me." That struck me as profound. Humble love. Earth shaking.

Good luck my friend and good playing! BTW, it makes me feel better to play it LOUD! GG

My girl just dumped me, great. She was the nicest person I met and she had to go off and dump for no reason.....Probably cause I'm ugly.Now I'm even more depressed. what the f$%# should I do with myself?

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Hey Riley, sorry to hear about your problems. Sometimes we find that every bad thing possible seems to happen at once and we wonder, "Why me?" I don't think anyone goes through life without these negative things kind of "stacking up" from time to time. Most of us have had these feelings at some time or other, and when they hit, it's a major bummer! The older guys (me being one of them) are right when they (we) say, "This too shall pass."

Just wanted you to know - you ARE loved.
- you WILL have another girlfriend, (not tomorrow, but when you least expect it.)
- you CAN play guitar when millions wish they could but can't.

Peace, Gridlok

PS-Go online and Google a poem by Rudyard Kipling called, "If".

When I was 13 boys would have nothing to do with me, probably because I'm ugly. (I ought to clarify the fact that I'm actually a girl. lol)

To be honest, I'm 17 now and none of my friends are with the same person that they were dating when they were 13. Breakups are a fact of life, everyone goes through them, it's not just you.

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Hey Little Bro!

Sorry to hear you got dumped. Her loss. It sucks - it's just another in the list of things that guys have to deal with. For what it's worth, you aren't alone. Me, CC and BlackCatBone have all gone through this lately, so we can share your pain!

Hey - you write pretty good - maybe it's time for you to get creative and write a song out of it. This would fit perfect with your grunge music - it's a perfect topic! You need to do a little song writing - I'll bet you'd enjoy it. I do a little and sometimes it really helps me get out some of my frustrations.

You know after you talking about your grunge music I decided to give it a shot to learn a little of it. I dug out the music to "Smells Like Teen Spirit" from Cobain and am starting to learn it. I figure one of these days you and I will figure out a way to jam together and I want to be able to keep up with your chops!

Hang tough Dude - keep your head up and be proud of Riley the Guitarist! I am!

RickyD

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i've got a friend in school who also has this disability too, and my best advice to give to you dude, is don't beat yourself up over it. Ignore what those a-holes say at school, b/c ya know what? There's a special place in he-you-know-where for those type of people. Don't ever, ever put yourself down b/c youve got a disability. It's not your fault. But don't destroy yourself from the inside out and give up on yourself like that dude, b/c people will worry about you b/c they care. Like Ricky said, you've friends here on the forum who aren't a-holes to you so you can always have us to cheer ya up. But don't blame yourself for something that you didnt cause. And always remember somebody cares

So may your Christmas be bright and you pick yourself up and start the new year off a new.

Yours Truly,

Rob

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I got this guitar and I learned how to make it talk...

Yeah I know that, but they suck big time when they happen.

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Yeah I have been writting grunge songs for about 6 months now, I have no clue what to write about now though. If I do write about whats happening now, how the hell would I put it into music words? I'm currently writting a song thats about a girl, I dont know who yet, but just a girl. I hope we can somhow jam too, with the way technologys evolving we'll be able to jam in no time.

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